2. God can.
3. I'm going to let Him.
These three short sentences, these 12 syllables, have completely changed my world the past few weeks. I am participating in a program called Making Peace With Your Past, which is an amazing support group program that helps people deal with issues from their pasts that may be effecting how they live and how they view God. These three sentences are the main theme of how to deal with these painful memories, but they've become so much more for me.
These words have helped me deal with junk that's been going on in my life a lot more recently. I realized that I was holding on to a lot of things that weren't healthy for me, and weren't in God's plan for my life. I realized I wasn't surrendering these things to Him. But just realizing that didn't really do much, since in my mind I still didn't want to let go.
But that's where these three steps came in to play. I realized I couldn't make the necessary changes on my own. I had to depend on God. I had to surrender to Him and let Him work through me. Simply put, I gave up my fight against God. I let go of several damaging relationships. I let go of my fear of failure in the future. I knew it wouldn't be easy, in fact far from it, but I knew that it would be worth it.
One of my biggest fears recently has been the fear of failure, especially when it comes to going on staff with Collegiate after I graduate next December, something God very clearly put on my heart this summer at LT. Collegiate staff members are completely support-based missionaries, meaning that I will depend on the generosity of my friends and family for my income. That's scary stuff for me. But I'm now more committed than ever to facing that fear and going on staff.
Thanks guys,
- Joe Langworthy
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| Band #3 at Fall Retreat 2012 |
